Friendships.

The other night me and some friends hopped onto a voice call and for some mysterious reason, we all just started sending old photos of ourselves back in middle/high school all of sudden. All in good fun of course, which a healthy dose of laughing, cringing, and reminiscing, that said, It became apparent to us all, and especially me that, we had alot more friends scattered across our groups that we just, stopped talking to, and that was just one of those things you just kind of have to think about for a while. Everyone knows that Humans are social creatures and thrive around others, but Humans are also ever changing, and maybe change to a point where you disconnect with others and or vice-versa.

Change is a beautiful thing, that can also distance yourself from others or even ostracize you from a community, I certainly know first hand. I find my personality, interests, and morals changing alot during my still current youth. I distanced myself from some former friends due to feeling less and less comfortable with them, whilst some of my former friends became more and more distanced with me for reasons possibly unbeknownst to me; It really does thing when you lose friends on either end of the situation, I care for others too much in that regard, In a way that would never truly be reciprocated from friends.

I'm in a bit of a strange position when It comes to friendships, It's a bit hard for me to make friends; but I'm not anti social (i think), I just find my very varied and scattered interests hard to establish into my own character, I can blabber about a bunch of the things I find cool if given the oppurtunity, but that's probably not what people find very interesting about a person. I'm happy with the way I am despite that, so I believe It's nothing truly wrong with me.

All that said, I'm very grateful for my current friends, Very lucky to have met them, but I think they'll be forever, though I might be jinxing myself saying that.

I need to remember theres no shame in posting shorter, more rambly, not-so interesting journals on here. It still certainly beats most things on twitter dot com.