Belated New Years

Weird to think that my website has been dormant for quite a while, ironic, since I so was fixated over It for the past few years. I was always thinking about new posts, how to update it, and encouraging others to make websites of their own, and now I'm at the point where I sort of forgot my site existed sometimes!

I'm writing this just to say: "I'm not dead, nor do i really wanna abandon this site." Websites are still awesome, I just hadn't had the vigor to update it mostly due to Life™. The latter half of last year was pretty rough for me, as it seemed to be for pretty much everyone I knew. For me, It was just lots and lots of introspection and reckoning with myself and mental health, I think I turned out ok though.

The other reason I hadn't updated was that, I got really, really obsessed over learning art. It's been a very fun (yet painful) experience. But I think my progress is pretty good for being at it since the beginning of December. I've basically only exclusively been drawing my site mascot Venus. To get good art gains, just make an OC and get extremely fixated on her.

I've redesigned her quite a bit, and even made up "lore" for her, I don't know If I'd like to call myself an artist proper, but it would be pretty cool if I could post art on this site and just be more creative in general, It's something I always wanted to do, but couldn't before. A lot bothers me about how my art looks, but my friends have been telling me I've been improving fast, I'll try to give myself that. Drawing and learning every day is very enriching, but maybe I shouldn't have hopefully, you'll get to see more of Venus soon...

On a whim, I showed off Venus to an acquaintance (now close friend) of mine, then explained to her that she's the mascot of my personal website, she found it very charming, and always wanted to know more about me. I was super flattered, and it made me remember that screaming in the void that is the internet can help develop friendships, that even though I don't have "reach", and have a bit of disdain for the modern internet, I can still meet cool people.

My friend even made fan art of Venus, she's a talented artist and is super cool and lovely and awesome. It made me wanna get even better as an artist.

I'm glad that my art looks good enough to me now, admittedly, I felt a bit ashamed of leaving my site dormant with that really old art of Venus as the banner for months, I still wanna make a banner using her, but I still haven't really figured out a design for that. My home page now looks awkwardly empty, don't worry, hopefully It'll put a fire under my ass and make me wanna create a new banner sooner rather than later.

I spent my New Years at an arcade, hanging out with my friends, and people who are atleast a decade and a half older than me, playing fighting games and schmups, and eating a bunch of McDonald's, at the end of the night, I told my friends semi-drunkenly that my New Years resolution was to "become a good artist", whatever that means to me, and it seems that 2 months later, I'm sticking to my guns, I guess I hold art close to my heart now. Pretty cool.

Posting semi-frequently is also something I wanna do again, I apologize to the people I've been texting alot for the past few months, basically dumping "abridged blog posts" in my texts or emails, mostly about video games, anime, adulthood, and hentai. Sorry about that, but thanks for letting me do that anyways. I'll try to do it more here.

Not really sure how to end this, I think I've always been bad at ending my posts. Nonetheless, thank you for reading this, and I hope 2026 treats everyone well. I haven't been on Neocities in a hot minute, and I really need to catch-up with everyones websites that weren't in my RSS feed.

Also, I have no idea what happened to my guestbook, so much foreign spam... I deleted the database, but hopefully nobody was clicking on those links. I'll try to figure out better spam protection soon. But I guess for now, It's non functional, maybe I'll forgo the guestbook as a whole, nowadays, I prefer email.

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